I Give Up

by Heligirl on January 25, 2010

in Daily Ramblings

You ever have one of those days where you just feel there isn’t anything you’re going to do right so why the hell even bother? I think I come across this frustrated apathy honestly. Not much I have ever done outside of have children has ever gone without criticism from a particular member of my family who will remain anonymous. I can tell you Freud would have a hay day with me though.

So, of course, I’m super sensitive to criticism. When I’m feeling particularly insecure, typically when someone around me has made some kind of off handed comment that sends me into a tailspin of self doubt, I’ve pretty much got myself convinced I can do nothing right. I’m here to tell you that feeling sucks donkey fleas. And I just make it worse by beating myself up further because I can’t lash out at the person who made the comment (as that would be a career altering decision, if you catch my drift.)

So despite the fact that I went another round with LG (a nice long story about a super crappy company for another time), got the nanny’s tax form done, moved the dog’s expensive vet appointment, caught up with e-mail, scheduled an appointment with the tax preparer, finished round one of a website for a business associate, and started editing a project for another client, I feel like a complete failure because I still have a pile of crap to do and no energy to do it. You ever have one of those days? I can’t possibly be the only one who is so hard on herself.

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